#pathologic posting

[petrsswevery]

threefold bullet but i kill myself

[ajczor]

what the fuck is wrong with this guy why is he looking at me like that

[cleeksfire]

Stepping outside as Clara for two seconds

[kristalliankka]

I feel obliged to tell you all that both Pathologic Classic and Pathologic 2 are on sale in Steam. For less than 10€, you too can have your brain rewired!

[awetfrog]

on a date with this guy he's really cute but he keeps going non verbal and microdosing toxins

[bioethicists]

it's very important to understand how a personality disorder diagnosis functions in the psychiatric system, even if you identify with the diagnosis or find it useful.

personality disorders on your medical record will be used to discredit anything you say or do. they indicate "don't bother listening to this person; apply treatment regardless of their wishes but also they're probably manipulating/attention-seeking so maybe don't bother treating them". needing support becomes attention-seeking. behaviors that would be treated + supported in someone without this diagnosis are ignored or treated as manipulative. providers are instructed to "withdraw warmth" (a real thing in the DBT provider's manual, btw) in response to self-injury or suicidal ideation.

if you have been dx'd with a personality disorder professionally, you likely understand this.

now, here's the important part: this is not an issue of 'stigma' against a politically neutral, pre-discursive True Disease which is being Unfairly Maligned. these diagnoses were formulated based on the idea that some patients cannot be trusted, that some patients seek care too much. they are applied to patient charts as a justification for withdrawing care or as a dismissal of someone "not getting better" fast enough. in the uk, they are often employed by the nhs to shame or problematize people who use large amounts of nhs resources, arguing that receiving a lot of care through the nhs is a negative behavior stemming from a disordered personality.

there are elements of personality disorders which resonate strongly with many people, including myself, but you need to be clear-eyed about the origins + functions of this diagnosis. as a whole, they were created + function as ways to discredit + mistreat noncompliant or "difficult" patients. 'reclaiming' them is not going to change how they function systematically- it is going to make it easier to engage in this systematic neglect by evoking 'ableism' or 'stigma!' when people question the utility or application of the diagnosis.

[meirimerens]

my collection of herb brides (informal) "types" lore I made up & will hold as personal truth from now on

deliberations below

"Prophetess type"

Pythia-inspired

stay in the depth of the Abattoir where unused parts of slaughtered bulls are burned alongside sacred herbs

dance in smoke-induced trances

translate the words of the Earth into chants that the "priestesses" Brides bring to the surface and disseminate among the Kin (some chants that other members of the Kin and Brides sing are hundreds or thousands of years old, remembered from the depths)

may be blind or visually impaired from birth, illness or age

long hair or masks cover the eyes

"Priestess type"

your average Herb Brides

dancers

direct intermediaries between the Earth and the Kin

their dancing make the herbs grow

crucial role in times of and ceremonies around blooming, sowing and reaping, and the harvest

sometimes descend into the Abattoir to bring back to the surface the chants of the "Prophetesses"

wear wrists and ankle bracelets, pendants and hair accessories made of bone, hardened clay or stone that jingle and chime when dancing

some play instruments, especially the older others (cf. "Crones")

"Midwife (sub)type"

less a "type" than a specialization

"priestess" Herb Brides having shown skill in or dedication to midwifery

unless actively engaged in midwifing, indistinguishable in behavior from other Herb Brides as they dance and make the herbs grow

plenty of Herb Brides that don't fit the "midwife" subtype are also midwives (cf. Big Vlad's comment on Artemy's birth), but all Herb Brides of the "midwife" subtype are

differentiated from other Herb Brides by:

no tattoo/body paint below the elbow hands and nails kept clean hair short or tied securely with less loose leaves, herbs, beads,...

"Crones"

less a type than a title: Herb Brides over the age of 50

lead chants, as they've often spent their whole lives learning them

those too weak to dance as they once did may play instruments (bull bone flute, bull hide drum)

typically more covered than the younger Brides as they get colder more easily: are given clothes by members of the Kin (often their own family)

slower dances with age

[teisubrainrot]

Fighting the epidemic for twenty years and a day

[cyrilnihil]

trying to hear the steppe ✶

[graveworthy]

I am going to write my Daniil Dankovsky Is Jewish post and it will be titled “Baruch Hashem That Man’s A Jew” and I will smack a picture of him right on top so no one can get confused about what man is a Jew

[stozkpile]

China (around the same time period) (anachronisms aside) AU

[petrsswevery]

my hands hurt. heres the ultimate pathologic spawning guide

i spent awhile on it, i hope it helps those who are unsure about spawning.

this allows you to easily spawn models in game, it’s very useful for height comparisons, and this makes it so you don’t have to track down every model’s name for yourself. i am still struggling to find clara’s xml file’s name, but i assure i will try to find it soon enough.

this allows you to properly create images like these below, from my own streams!

[ajczor]

my thoughts on pathologic classic hd: i do not know how to feel about it. and, ironically, i kind of like when art makes me feel this way but also it might be the sunk cost fallacy and stockholm syndrome amalgamation talking after i put well over 70 hours into this game over the course of about a year (i think? i'm not sure. time blurs together anyway). it took me 3 tries to actually complete 1 playthrough. the first time i tried playing as the haruspex, didn't understand a thing and gave up after repeatedly failing day 1. the second time i picked the bachelor and had to restart on day 7 because i found out that the letters are a vital part of the story and i didn't even know about them. the third time i tried to get a good ending and i think i succeeded but then again who the fuck knows, i still checked out all the other endings. the more i think about it the more insane i feel and also i might have played it wrong but it was still a good game despite simultaneously being one of the worst things i've ever played/experienced. the picture is relevant because i made this exact face expression on day 12 before standing up from my desk to pace around for a solid 2 minutes. 10/10, would not recommend

[mountainfucker69]

on the spectrum in the town on gorkhon

[kasha-malasha]

they deserve a quiet warm summer evening

[awetfrog]

if yuo sleep in the stillwater every night u can unlock the secret gaysex ending